Bleak within

 Speak…
Say what?


The world is at war,

I close my eyes to avoid seeing this chaos,

But the darkness in me is even more chaotic.

At this point, I would have preferred to be blind because every day I see is an ultimate evil.

I hear their arguments, and it kills me to know how they talk about me.

They only talk about my repeated falls but choose to ignore the burden they put on my back.


Talk...

To whom?


God?

May His name be blessed, but He knows everything.

I can’t surprise someone who is already aware of the truth,

I can’t beg someone who pretends not to see me.

Maybe He’s just teaching me what life is, but at this point, I’m telling myself that this life He gave me is not worth it.

He is polyglot,

I spoke to Him with my tears and I was put on DND.

Grateful for everything you’ve done, Father, but You have to let me fall asleep forever one of these nights.


Talk...

About what?


Feelings? No.

Emotions?

I’m angry and it kills me.

All this heat I’m trying to contain.

Like a sleeping volcano,

The appearance is friendly but my magma is deadly.

I get angry for being so understanding while I am an eternal misunderstood.

I gave everything, 

I don’t ask anyone for anything, and even empty I continue to give.

I’m going to explode and after,being exposed,

They will say that I was a good son and they will never admit that they treated me like a subordinate.


Talk...


Why are all these responsibilities assigned to me?

I was forced to be a man since my childhood and today, they’re trash talking about this man who is acting like an old man.

Irony.

Mature brain and, by nature, tired body. 

I try to be wise as an angel, good as an angel.

I stop, I start again and I try to do my best...


Talk...

No.

I try to put a muzzle on my crazy feelings.

Leave me in my deafening silence.




                                  Himy🖤🥀

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  1. Landy��31 janvier 2025 à 08:49

    Great job Himy✨💫

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  2. The Max3 février 2025 à 07:18

    Good one Himy !💫💫💫
    Maybe time will make your surroundings see you entirelly. A great man !

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