Himy✍🏾🖤

Death… honestly, it’s not the worst thing ever. The worst thing is feeling like life doesn’t matter anymore. No matter how hard you try, no matter how much you push yourself, you feel like you are going straight into a hole. A lot of pain, a lot of feelings, a lot of frustration, and I don’t know how to explain them, how to deal with them, how to handle them. I don’t know how I am going to overcome them, and I feel weaker every day. I’m not broken, honestly; I’m already in multiple pieces, and there’s no way I can rebuild myself. Every night is like a war, and I’m scared. I don’t want to close my eyes because I feel like either I’ll have nightmares or I won’t make it. A lot of pressure, and they keep judging me. How the fuck can I do better? I’m already trying my best. Life is not easy, but mine is like hell. Do you have any idea how hard it is to never be allowed to fail, mess up, or show weakness? I can’t be weak, or at least I don’t want to expose it. Heartburn, violent headache, an...

Why speak when the hearing of the audience is veiled?Why write if the readers are all illiterate? I’m used to being heard but never being listened to,They all look at me but none of them see me, Let’s breathe... You’re trying to get to know me today and tomorrow, what will happen? Just a person I knew, or at least a tale that I will tell my kids, If I tell you that I don’t know myself enough you’ll think I’m trying to flee you, but you worry it’s only me that I’m fleeing, I run away from all the emotions my body would like to feel, Why? What’s the point? Since everything is ephemeral, So let the emptiness be eternal Let’s breathe... Am I your best friend? Believe me when I tell you that you have all the gold in the world but you are not mine, It takes a lot of effort and investment, every day I surprise myself and most of the time I get disappointed. The darkest place l've ever seen was inside me, and nothing scared me more. What will happen to you? I’m not trying to hurt you, I ha...